Doubt - Believe it or not
One of the biggest challenges I have faced in my life is doubt over salvation. I made a few professions of faith as a young girl and a teenager. But the problem was, I viewed salvation as this very difficult process, thus I never truly accepted Christ as my savior.
To me salvation was something I had a part in. The sinner’s prayer had to be exactly perfect, and I had to recite it exactly perfect in order for Christ to hear me. I believed this way for the early part of my adult life too. I was never happy, because I could not say the prayer perfect enough for Him to hear me. Something was always wrong, I missed a word, or I didn’t say it with enough meaning. Around four years ago, I was going through a very difficult time in my life. I can remember sitting in my room and thinking about one of the professions of faith I had made, and wondering if I in fact was saved.
Then God revealed to me that “I” was depending too much on “me” to be saved. In fact, it wasn’t about “me” at all but about HIM. I could not save myself! That night I cried out to Jesus and asked Him to save me and be Lord of my life.
My life didn’t change overnight, but it did overtime. He got me back in church and hooked me up with an amazing group of Christian mentors, those who encourage me and pray for me. He has given me the ability to write for the Unleashed in Christ Ministry. I have done nothing, He has done everything.
The truth is I still doubt my salvation experience at times, but I don’t doubt Him. I believe His word is true. Even though in my mind I cannot always understand it, I choose to believe it. Salvation is not this hard process I once believed it was, it simply requires a repenting heart and faith, the rest is up to Him.
John 3:16 (KJV) 16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
LC Green
To me salvation was something I had a part in. The sinner’s prayer had to be exactly perfect, and I had to recite it exactly perfect in order for Christ to hear me. I believed this way for the early part of my adult life too. I was never happy, because I could not say the prayer perfect enough for Him to hear me. Something was always wrong, I missed a word, or I didn’t say it with enough meaning. Around four years ago, I was going through a very difficult time in my life. I can remember sitting in my room and thinking about one of the professions of faith I had made, and wondering if I in fact was saved.
Then God revealed to me that “I” was depending too much on “me” to be saved. In fact, it wasn’t about “me” at all but about HIM. I could not save myself! That night I cried out to Jesus and asked Him to save me and be Lord of my life.
My life didn’t change overnight, but it did overtime. He got me back in church and hooked me up with an amazing group of Christian mentors, those who encourage me and pray for me. He has given me the ability to write for the Unleashed in Christ Ministry. I have done nothing, He has done everything.
The truth is I still doubt my salvation experience at times, but I don’t doubt Him. I believe His word is true. Even though in my mind I cannot always understand it, I choose to believe it. Salvation is not this hard process I once believed it was, it simply requires a repenting heart and faith, the rest is up to Him.
John 3:16 (KJV) 16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
LC Green